So I said I was going to update more, then let my livejournal sit for 2.5 months...sweet, except not at all.

Today, I babysat the kids, all three all day since it is Spring Break. I got up, made them breakfast, drove Jackee into work, took them to the park, took them home, made lunch for them, put the baby done for a nap, took a nap myself, took them to the pool to go swimming, made dinner, cleaned the house and talked to Jamey and Jackee when they got home. I filed my taxes today. I ended up 103 ahead, which isn't a huge payday but still an okay amount.

I work a double tomorrow, which will definitely help with the car payment. My birthday is on Thursday, I will be 26. Normally I hate my birthday, this year I think I am okay with it. I guess having a sense of self worth and self esteem makes getting older not so dramatic.

Basically, my to do list is complete for the day, with the exception of washing my work clothes, which I will do as soon as I head to bed in 5 minutes.

Love,

Jessica

Read through all my old journal entries...my 22 year old self makes me giggle.

I have to work at 11am, that is going to be fun. But I appreciate the double shift so it's okay...I do have to pay rent on the first so whatever.

My room is dirty.

Okay To Do List Time:
1. Get some sleep!
2. Wake up, shower, get ready
3. Work at 11am
4. Buy Kaylee new headphones
5. Clean the house and bedroom
6. Read New Moon
7. Do laundry
8. Call Mom, Randi and Rachael
9. Check my email

Not too bad overall.

Love and more later,
Jess

I haven't written a livejournal in what feels like forever.

I looked it up just to see if it was here.

It was waiting for me like a loyal friend.

I am back, and determined to be better than before.

Love.

Date:	2006-12-05 14:52
Subject:	Working off of Mandi's Happy Crappy Day List...
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy

So M is having a bad day, I feel you on that. She reads my livejournal even though I don't post a whole hell of a lot anymore. But I feel you on the crappy day so here's my list...

1. I am severily poor. I need to buy Ashley a birthday gift and Maggie's going away present on top of my cell phone bill, sorority dues, curves membership, sears payment this week. Also, since I am moving out of the sorority house but cannot find a subleasor, I have two rents next semester.

2. I had to get my car fixed yesterday and the repairs set me back 160 bucks. Although that is not expensive in the grand scheme of auto repairs, I didn't like paying it.

3. My house is filthy...bags of trash need to go out, I have no clean clothes, and I bought new underwear because I didn't feel doing laundry. It is a disaster area.

4. I have massive homework and I need to do it all after work tonight, so after I spend 2 hours cleaning up the filthy house that I have created, I need to spend 20 in the Grawn Computer lab. I need to read articles for HST 326 and type up notes for Alison and Elizabeth. Plus, study for the exam that is on Friday. For PSC 320, I need to tweak the powerpoint presentation and write a paper on the outcome of my bill. Plus do readings and study for the exam. BLR 521, readings and a massive take home exam. Not fun.

5. I have to work practically every day of Christmas Break and the days I don't work, I need to pack up and move into my new place.

6. I'm researching Las Vegas and I am getting scared. I don't know if I am ready for the moving cross country commitment.

That's all I got, today sucks...off to shower and then to work.

The soundtrack to my life ....
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Opening Credits:
Ben Kweller "Wasted and Ready"

Waking Up:
Papa Roach "Between Angels and Insects"

First Day At School:
Sublime "April 26, 1992"

Falling In Love:
Rascall Flatts "Mayberry"

Fight Song:
Lizzie McGuire Soundtrack "What Dreams Are Made Of"

Breaking Up:
Sugar Ray "Answer the Phone"

Prom:
UB40 "Every Breath You Take" (50 First Dates Soundtrack)

Life Is Good:
Blessid Union of Souls "Hey Leonardo"

Mental Breakdown:
Dixie Chicks "Not Ready to Make Nice"

Driving:
Oldies "Then He Kissed Me" (Adventures in Babysitting Soundtrack)

Flashback:
Linkin Park "Numb"

Getting Back Together:
Rise Against "Swing Life Away"

Wedding:
James Taylor "Mexico"

Birth of Child:
Ben Harper "Blessed to Be a Witness"

Final Battle:
Rent Soundtrack "Light My Candle"

Death Scene:
Shania Twain "She's Not Just a Pretty Face"

Funeral Song:
Counting Crows "A Long December"

End Credits:
FM Static "Definitely Maybe"

Date:	2006-08-30 14:14
Subject:	New Shoes!
Security:	Public
Mood:	Shopalicious!

I just bought these...do you love them?

http://www.guess.com/ProductDetails.aspx?style=HONEY&image=HONEY-BLKPT&root_category|596=Women's%

Date:	2006-08-28 00:08
Subject:	Argh!
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy

I am feeling pretty shitty lately.

Who loves you baby? Cause, I'm not sure anyone really loves me anymore.

Is it summer yet?

When did I become an adult, and when did I learn not to care?

Okay, I'm done.

Love and random, encrypted entries,

Whiparoo

( Ten things, stolen from McCool )

( A-Z, Stolen from Whitney )

( Stolen from LMFJ )

I realize that I was not a very good server in the beginning, but the new people at work are seriously not going to make it. I hate to be a bitch, but when I look around, I get very annoyed.

I am in serious need of a relationship. And while I am in no way ready for one, I still want one. And before when I would feel this way, he would call and I would feel okay about myself for a minute and we would fool around. Then I wouldn't talk to him for a week and the vicious cycle would start over again. But I am 3 months clean of him and I am not going to relapse. I just want someone to hang out with. However, I will say that I hate when I am around him and turn into a crazy bitch who stomps around. Lately, there's been less of that because I am consciously trying to avoid any confrontations.

I work a phase tomorrow, and I will close because I need to send Nichole 400 dollars and I don't want to touch my bank account. Since I made some cash tonight, I have 239 to go.

( Survey stolen from Mal who stole it from LMFJ )

This summer sucks. No two ways about it.

I wish...

...that I could make 1,000 dollars this week.

...that I could score higher than a 158 on my practice LSATs, because at this point I will be introducing myself to clients in the following manner, "Hi my name is Jessica Whipple and I graduated from Phoenix Online School of Law because the Reading Section of the LSAT kicked my ass...nice to meet you."

...that I could go on vacation, to like a spa or something.

...I could finish the AFI list, currently watching :Pulp Fiction, Jaws, and Rebel Without a Cause.

...I could keep my F-ing house clean.

...I could sleep normal hours.


Okay, enough bitching, I'm done. Going to watch Pulp Fiction and wallow about my LSAT Prep.

1. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
Black

2. Honestly, what's on your mind?
I have a headache

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
taking this survey

4. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
nope, sometimes I think I'm okay

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
well, I smoked like 14 cigarettes

7. Honestly, do you watch Disney channel?
yes

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
yes

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
conversations with Joe because he puts things in perspective and he so intellectual, it awes me.

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
yes

12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
I have disordered eating

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
not really

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
probably a few

15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like?
who doesn't?

17. Honestly, are you loyal?
yes

18. Honestly, are you in denial?
probably

19. Honestly, who would you rather be with right now?
that's one of those deep, dark secrets

20. Honestly do you like someone?
absolutely

21. Honestly, does anyone like you?
probably not, I'm not a very fun girl

22. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them?
with the person I like? Probably not, but he's amazing to look at.

23.)Honestly, do you shave?
yes.

26.)Honestly, do you smell?
I hope not!

27.)Honestly, who do you wish you were?
a young Audrey Hepburn

28.)Honestly, do you miss anything?
yes. I miss smelling his hair after he showered, late night drives, midnight kisses...I miss him.

21 Things This Girl Adores

Fave Food: Currently, McDonald's Grilled Chicken Ceaser with Lowfat Italian and Fruit and Walnut salad, minus yogurt dipping sauce and walnuts.
Fave Pop: Diet Coke
Fave Restaurant: Ever? McNally's Tavern in Grand Rapids
Fave Color: Pale Pink
Fave Song: Anything by Jeff Buckley
Fave Movie: Donnie Brasco
Fave Actor: Mark Ruffalo
Fave Actress: Natalie Portman
Fave Hollywood Cutie: Topher Grace
Fave Young Actress: Scarlett Johannsen or Natalie Portman
Fave Morning Show: Price is Right
Fave Bedroom Item: My vanity
Fave lazy day activity: Watching movies curled up in bed
Fave Workout: Walking on the treadmill, stairclimber
Fave Vacay Spot: Mediterranean
Fave Quote: "Promise me you'll never forget me, because if I knew you would, I would never leave"-Winnie the Pooh or "The risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk to blossom"-Anais Nin
Fave Movie Quote: "I wish I had never met you because then I could go to sleep at night, not knowing there was someone like you out there."-Good Will Hunting or "Losers complain about their best...winners go home and fuck the prom queen."-The Rock
Fave Make-up: Clear Gloss and Yellow Eyeshadow
Fave Nail Polish color: Deep Red
Fave Technology Item: Palm Pilot
Fave Girly Addiction: Shoes and Handbags

Sometimes I really do not understand guys.

Leave me alone...go back to your girlfriend. Stop saying stupid shit in my ear. It may have worked 6 months ago, but nothing you say now is ever going to make me go back to you. Ever.

I'm on a diet. I want to be healthy, I want to be laidback. I want to be balanced.

I want to find a new job, because I have never met more people who have absolutely no class.

I went to Annie's tonight and watched Schindler's List. Amazing.

I need to do laundry, clean the hamster cages, clean the house, do dishes, clean out my car, return my library books, go to work at 4pm and deposit money. This is my to do list, how much you wanna bet I get it done.

Going home on the 4th, and I wanna hang with Shana Dana...maybe go down to Summer Celebration carnival and walk around. Everclear is playing this Thursday, I really wanna go see them, because they are amazing. Shana if you fly home soon, wanna go?

Okay, later

J. Whip

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
---Lips of an Angel, Hinder

Okay, so I really like this song and I'm not quite sure why, but whatever, I've listened to it about a million times tonight. P.S. It's 4:20 AM and I have no interest in going to bed because I am not tired whatsoever.

I went to work today, even though I really didn't want to. I only have 5 days until I get 2, count em, 2 points back...something that I haven't accomplished since my first 2 months, so I cannot call in. I will endure.

I think the drinking is getting to me, I'm not used to going out so much. I threw up this morning, not fun.

And okay, I get it. Not thin. Stop calling me that. Especially when you are fat. You know, if you didn't have to pull your stomach up to actually see your penis, you could comment on me. So shut the fuck up. I know you are confused right now, but since I am not talking to him, I am first-person venting.

What the fuck is going on with my life? I try to makeover my soul, and I just wind up more fucked up than ever.

Okay...I'm done and I want to smoke.

not even worth the capitalization,

Whipps

I really should be doing my massive amount of homework...I just can't seem to bring my self to do it. I have class in 5 hours and I have not done any homework...why am I updating? I'm leaving this wretched computer lab to go attempt to do homework in my living room. However, I have a sinking suspicion that I will simply go to sleep. I WILL GO TO CLASS TOMORROW. I WILL FINISH ALL MY HOMEWORK FOR THE REST OF THE SEMESTER TOMORROW. I WILL ASK ABOUT EXTRA CREDIT IN MY BLR CLASSES ON FRIDAY. I WILL.

Sorry, I'm just trying to convince myself here.

Date:	2006-02-24 11:53
Subject:	Tagged by Mandi
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated

Guilt: What is yours? Explain yourself.

Culinary: Jeno's Supreme Pizzas. They are only a dollar and I scrape off the toppings with Baked Lays Potato chips and wash them down with Diet Coke. Yeah. I do this like 3 times a day until I am out of them.

Literary: Trashy Mags. I read all of my horoscopes in every mag in the supermarket. And I believe them!

Audiovisual: Grey's Anatomy and Project Runway. I organize my work schedule around them. Whip can you work Sunday Night? Nope, gotta watch Greeeeeeeeeeeey's!

Musical: Rent because I wish I was cool enough to survive on 18 cents a day.

Celebrity: Mark Ruffalo because he's like McDonald's when you are on a diet. You know its bad for you so you just avoid Mission Street all together. God, I fucking love him. Too bad he does shitty movies.

Tagged: Shana Dana, Renee, Kimmy and Roomie.

Date:	2006-02-19 16:12
Subject:	So you wanna know the truth?
Security:	Public
Mood:	upset

The truth is, it may seem like I only update my livejournal when I'm depressed and down, but I'm depressed all the time.

I have too much to do...all my homework for tonight, including a shit ton for EDU 107, BLR 302, BLR 222, HST 102, PSC 280, and HEV 100. I have a test in PSC 280 tomorrow. Fun.

I took a menu test at work today, hope its okay.

I went to work last night and when I got out, my stupid car wouldn't start. I got it towed to the house today. I called my mom, her and my stepdad are coming to fix it next weekend. I told them I don't want it anymore since its been having so many problems, so they are going to take it back to Muskegon. That way they will have an extra car and then they can fix it whenever it breaks down.

So I'm not spending money on anything extra anymore. I'm buying my little's stuff, paying bills and phi mu dues and the rest is going in my car fund. I will be able to buy a car in less than 2 months. All I need to do is everytime I feel like ordering pizza, put 30 dollars into my fund. I bet I could save 5000 grand in two months. I will. Hopefully if I pay for Lisa's gas, she won't mind taking me to work. Otherwise, I can just call a taxi.

I have to finish my little's book now and do all my homework. Peace out folks.

( Stolen from Stephaine )